I want a yearbook

I've been watching One Tree Hill and in the fourth season they get their yearbooks and have everybody sign theirs. I LOVE this concept. Who doesn't want a yearbook and be able to look in it 20 years from now and read all the sweet messages people write in them?
So, why is it that we don't get a yearbook? I'd like it. Some people who started this year with me have already parted ways with us and I'm sure that I won't be seeing some of the ones who are left in the upcoming years. So here is a short overview of what happened during this school year, consider it my yearbook.

At the beginning of school I met my class, of at least 30 people. We all came with the idea of becoming an English teacher. Only half have made it to the end.

I made friends with a couple of people, mostly girls. Two of them have become my go-to-co-workers. The other girls have become my 'hang-out-on-a-slow-schoolday' crew.

I have passed all my exams. Only two resits in the entire year. My highest grade was a 9,5/10. My lowest is a 6.

I met a very nice group of people who I've spend my entire first internship with. That was awesome. I've even managed to arrange next year's internship with one of the girls. AWESOMESAUCE

And and and... yes I've even fallen in love.

What can I say? I loved this year. I met some cool new people, some not-so-cool new people and I've reached my goal, which was passing this year and making it to the next. All I have to do now is finish the final 2 papers, hand them in and get that Propedeuse. Wish me luck!!

xo

50 questions....

So I like this game on my phone called 'The Test' where you and someone else answer questions and the other person tries to guess what you answered. It's actually really fun and it gave me the idea to answer some questions I found online. I'm going to answer them shortly but completely honest. If you'd like some more info then you can comment. So, let's start:

1. What is one thing you will never do again?

- I will never let someone control me, ever again.

2. Would you rather be twice as smart or twice as happy?

- I think i'm smart enough so I'd rather be twice as happy. Though in all honestly I'm pretty happy lately :D

3. What happened the last time you cried?

- I was on my period (hormones people) and watching a series in which a school shooting happened and someone died and he was a very beloved character and because of the raised emotions... you guessed it LOL

4. What happened the time in your life when you were the most nervous to do something?

- I was about to lose my v-card

5. What would your parents be surprised to learn about you?

- That I'm even lazier than they think

6. What’s your worst habit?

- checking my phone waaaaay too many times to see if i've received messages

7. What superpower would you have for one day?

- I'd like to be able to fly, NYC or Japan, here I come

8. What fictional character do you have the biggest crush on?

- There was a time I was team Edward, but lately I've been crushing on 'Bloodlines's Adrian Ivashkov.

9. Where would you live if you could live anywhere in the world?

- I would love to live in the UK or US for a period of time

10. What is your most bizarre pet peeve?

- When people don't finish their sentences. People, I'm naturally curious!

11. Who knows you the best?

- My best friend Kim, but slowly that is becoming a tie with someone els :)

12. What after school activities did you do in high school?

- I was a majorette for 12 years, so also during my high school period. Drawing was the second.

13. What “most likely to” superlative would you be most honored to receive?

- ... write a romance novel

14. What’s the last book you really loved?

- really really really loved is 'Divergent' by Veronice Roth

15. What was the greatest television show of all time?

- There are a couple which I love soo much so I can't pick but right now 'One Tree Hill' is playing in the background. Love that show!

16. What’s been your favorite age so far?

- well, 24 is actually a nice age so far. 

17. If you could go back in time, what is one piece of advice you would give your younger self?

- Don't worry too much about what people think of you. Those who are important to you will love you no matter what. They accept you for who you are and for what you look like and still love you. 

18. What one thing would you be most disappointed if you never got to experience it?

- becoming a mom. Trust me, i'm nowhere near ready to be one but i'd really be disappointed if i'd never get the chance. 

19. Apologize or ask permission?

- Apologize. People make mistakes and iI'd rather be sincere and admit I was wrong and say sorry.

20. Unlimited love or money?

- Money would be handy but I think a life would be just as fine with limited money. I'd choose love all the way. 

21. If you knew you would die in one week, what would you do?

- Get on a plane, take M. with me and go to Los Angeles or Toronto and meet Cassie Steele.

22. What’s your most listened to song?

- Right now it's Ya Better Believe by Max Morgan

23. Beach vacation or European vacation?

- European vacation

24. If you could have been a child prodigy what would you have wanted to be skilled at?

- playing the piano

25. What’s the first thing you would do if you won the lottery?

- Split it in 3, give one part to my mom, post 1 part on my savings account and use the third part to find myself a house and get a car and pay for my school. 

26. What celebrity would you trade lives with?

- Sophia Bush. She is an actress on Chicago P.D. and I think she's amazing. But then again, I wouldn't be able to meet her so yeah i'd rather stay myself.

27. If you were a performing artist, what would you title your first album?

- Revelations

28. What story do your friends still give you crap about?

- Not any story really. 

29. If earth could only have one condiment for the rest of time, what would you pick to keep around?

- Mayonaise

30. What is the ideal number of people to have over on a Friday night?

- two or three I think. Though that one special person is enough as well :)

31. What was the worst age you’ve been so far?

- I don't really have a worst age. I think my early teens were the worst cause I wasn't confident at all and was bullied so I felt lonely. But then again I made some friends so I survived. 

32. What is your weirdest deal breaker?

- Can't come up with one right now. 

33. What fictional character reminds you most of yourself?

- I'd like to think i'm like Haley James Scott from One Tree Hill. She's a very warm and loving person and I love they way she cares about people. I'd like to think I'm just as responsible and caring as her.

34. Do you believe in karma?

- Not really so far. I believe in what comes around goes around, wait... that is what they call Karma right?

35. What was your favorite TV show as a kid?

- There are too many shows I watched as a kid, but to this day I love the Powerpuff Girls and Dexter's Laboratory and Scooby Doo and all those series that aired around that time. Yes, I was a 90s kid. 

36. What is the weirdest thing you find attractive in a person?

- I don't consider it weird so I'm just gonna say what attracts me in a person, that is their humor. If they can make me laugh, they certainly make a shot. 

37. What Jeopardy! category would you clear, no problem?

- Anything about tv series. 

38. What is something you’re superstitious about?

- I'm not superstitious. 

39. What is the scariest experience you have ever had?

- Nothing specific I can come up with, but i'm not a fan of going somewhere in the dark, so driving on a road I'm not familiar with while it's dark. 

40. Who is a non-politician you wish would run for office?

- We don't have the 'running for office' thing here but I would like to see someone like my friend Daniel run for 'office' since he's really good at speeches. Could get a chuckle out of it. 

41. What cheesey song do you have memorised?

- She's like the wind by Patrick Swayze

42. What one dead person would you most like to have dinner with, if it were possible?

- I would love to have dinner with Elvis. Get the chance to ask him about his life and get to know the real person behind the image of what was the showman. 

43. Do you think it’s important to stay up to date with the news?

- Yes. 

44. What is the best present you’ve ever received?

- in 2004 my mom gave me my own baton, engraved with my name. (it's the long metal stick you use as a majorette.)

45. Would you give up one of your fingers if it meant you’d have free wifi wherever you go, for the rest of your life?

- NO. I have 3G. I'm allright. 

46. What’s the first thing you’d do if you were the opposite sex for one day?

- I'd change into a guy then and no I can't think of anything else but finding out what it feels like for a guy to have sex and all that goes with it. 

47. If someone told you you could give one person a present and your budget was unlimited–what present would you get and for whom?

- Since my budget is unlimited I'd probably buy a house for my Mom. That way she's set for life and has no more issues with paying things like rent and stuff. 

48. What is the nicest thing someone could say about you?

- That I look beautiful and that they love me. 

49. Giant house in a subdivision or tiny house somewhere with a view?

- Tiny house with a view. I would just buy more stuff to fill the giant house and truthfully I don't need much. I'd much rather have an amazing view to see the sun rise. 

50. What is the weirdest quirk your family has?

- They are really loud. I can hear them from way too far away. But they're also very loving and welcoming and all that very loud as well. So yeah I love them. 

I just don't get it

Ok so lately I've been hearing some things about how other girls have been behaving towards guys. I'm not saying any names or anything because truthfully I've been told these things in confidence and I really don't want to violate their trust. That said, I just don't get it.

So, we all know dating (and love in general) is hard work. It can go wrong any second and I always second guess myself. 'Should I have said that?' 'Why did I say that?' 'Is he truly interested in me?' are questions that probably cross your mind as well as they do mine.

Sometimes it just don't work. You decide that it's better to end it and move on. But what if you're not given the chance to move on? I don't have too much experience dealing with break-ups but I do have some sense of what you should and shouldn't do.

Last wednesday I hung out with a guy who had been cranky all morning. He's been a little short with words and, you know, you noticed something was off. This is a guy who is so sweet, nice and handsome and he's truly a good guy. So it was a little weird to see him like that. I hadn't really seen it before. Sometime during the day truth came out. His ex had told him she's met someone else and it had really hit him hard. He actually started crying. I had never seen him cry before that. He told us (me and another girl) the entire story.
What became obvious was that this girl had broken it off, but he'd never really gotten a chance to get over her. She'd kept coming back and since he still loved her, they made some mistakes together. If you had seem him when he told us this, you would've understood all that. At some point I asked him if I could hit her. He said 'go ahead'.

I just don't get it. Maybe it's me and my lack of experience with this, but I know that you have to give someone time to get over something like a relationship. They had been together for a year and a half but 'very intense right off the bat' according to him. Especially then, you should give someone time to get over you. I wanted to be friends with my ex, but I noticed when he'd moved on and had a new girlfriend that it hurt. I wasn't good enough for him anymore and he'd found a replacement (at least that is what it felt like). Is it too difficult to understand that this feeling might not only happen for me but also for a guy? Especially after a relationship so intense, of lasting for let's say 5 years?

There are girls out there who are afraid after breaking it off with their ex. Maybe they regret it? I can see that since you step out of something that there is now a void. You're trying to fill it with something else, sometimes a new relationship (*rebound, cough*) but you'll need to find a way to deal with this 'loss' cause after all, you're losing something.

I don't think these girls read my blog but if you're ever in a situation like this, where you've broken things off with someone then please remember this:

You have ended something that has given you joy and happiness, but it didn't work out. You have to find something else to do with your time (and on your own). Just don't keep going back to your ex. He/She will have to get over you just the same. It hurts to find out that you're no longer 'special enough' anymore to your ex. Give them time to heal and don't keep getting in touch with them. If you want to become friends, then give it some time. If he/she is ready and willing, they will come to you.

Hopefully I'll remember to give someone time as well. I'm not the ex, but there is still some hurt there. Just keep in mind, i'm not walking away.